2010, I'm not scared of you.

New year new start baby! (:
Okkk, its already 4.54am gotta get ready for KL now.
Shall fix this shit when imma backkk!

There are points in my life I feel lost and unsafe, moments of truth I need to face and it’s always so scary when fear engulfs. There are times I feel anger and disappointment, times I am just so helpless.

Though these emotions never go away, I feel like a braver person when I face them. Not because I’ve grown stronger, nor because I’m less scared now. Braver cause you are with me.

You, just like any other (cute) boy, plays basketball and watch retarded boy cartoons (bfs). You probably stood out cause you were vain like mad (top priority hahaha), funny and had your hair as an advantage.

But really, once I began to know you it was like drugs, only better. We’ve been together for some time now, yet it feels like first day all over again each time you hold me close.

I like to laze in bed with you best, talking about things and laughing it off, making fun of you and tickling you when I feel like it (all the time!) and you are always so willing to let me bully. But the best still has gotta be waking up beside you, then gazing at your sleeping face (then starting to wake you up and asking stupid questions… IMAGE! Hahaha.)

I’m sorry for being a tyrant each time I sleep, sorry for the tantrums I throw each time I don’t get my way and my never ending list of cravings especially when the television commercials are on.

I know I had a tom yam craze right after we came back from Thailand. Then, you were coughing like mad, blood and all. Yet, just cause I wanted to, you made sure I got it. Always spoilt, yet you always give in, just to make me happy just like you eating the ring pop I gave you now just cause it makes me happy!

Thank you for knowing and understanding me so well, knowing my every move and thoughts even before I could do/ say it. It’s still pretty weird honestly, having someone to agree with all my thoughts and feelings. Thoughts and feelings that I don’t dare to voice out sometimes with others.

There are so many things I’ve gotten used to about you, too many to list.

You, catching me before I fall each time (for real)
You, eating a mountain of rice
You, waking up no matter how tired just to make sure I am fed
You, patting me to sleep every time imma sleeping with you no matter how tired you are, making sure that I fall asleep before you do

You, just being you, thank you. You are part of my habit and comfort zone now. So, before time washes these details away, I want to note them down and remember them cause they mean the world to me. I love you baby boy xoxo

Skipped school today yet again, after bbb and I promised each other that we will not. Arghhh, really really should stop. Anywayyyy, going to Thailand next week alr! ;) Eggggggcited! Later gonna google what we're gonna do there, cause I have possibly zero idea 'cept shopping and eating like a pig? Lol.

Bbb's first match is tmrrr, so gonna go down & show some love. Nana's gonna come down with me too. Yay to my favourite girl I love you big time! ;DDDD

Havent blogged about Gentings yet. It was pretty fun, though we didnt manage to do anything much. But having bbb around with my brother, favourite cousins and Janet was the sex. Kinda happy they got along so well. ;) Still remember every single detail of the hotel hooha which scared the shit out of me, and freezing our asses out there 3am in the morning walking around aimlessly. ;)

Currently, life kinda revolves around fyp and school, bbb and a handful of others. Kinda like my small circle now, damn tired of drama though I miss the fun sometimes. Still, I think I can make do without it.

Okkkk, so bbb just went to bed. He's so adorable, said bye but dont want to go offline at least 10 times, before going to bed. Awwwwww. He is so sweet most (Note I say most) of the time he makes me a very happy girl. ;) Hope everything stays like this for however long it can, cause basking in this goodness is more than anything I can ask for.

xoxo

Back from gentings! Its tuesday alr & I have skipped school like free. Damnit, need to start coming school more often alr aye. Missed the talk with the displinary team yesterday, die. How? Okkkk, better study for UT byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Its almost 4 in the morning right now, but I am no where near tired. Kinda sucks when you have school tmr at 10 in the morning. So life's been good, actually too good I fear to wake up tmr morning and have everything stripped off me.

Tonight feels exceptionally quiet, yet just the way I like it. All warm in bed with a book in hand, dying to finish it to know how it ends. Travelling light. Contents, kinda depressing. It saddens me to know that it is happening to someone I came acquainted to by her novel. Things real and how it sores.

"Travel light and you can sing in the face of the robber" - Katrina Kittle

Happy 1st just went by. I liked the way it was, simple fuss free and effortless. Still, we managed much fun. Silly rides, silly moments, sushi, silly talk. More than anything I could ask for with the right one. Its never what we did that mattered, its the person one's with that determines everything.

I just texted bbb to ask him what was i up to the past few days so I could blog it. Lol, its the holidays thing, cant remember a single thing but nowwww, imma too lazy to continue. =\

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Gonna work tmr or not? Annoying much! If he doesnt call by 1, I shall decide that there is no work.

Before blogger fucks up again, gonna upload some long overdue peeeektures while I can. Lol. Can never finish uploading for sure cause the albums combined adds up to 1963 peektures in total. -.-


















































I swear its never ending! Imma lazy to continue, I give upppp its alr 5.13am work at 1 tmr. I need sleep.

xoxo